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[28 Jan 2005|07:14pm] |
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wishing. regret. |
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tv. |
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I want my old friends back.
my sophmore year has officaially sucked.
Maybe b/c ive been punished for 88% of it,
But so far it has sucked.
So my new years resolution ( kinda late,huh?)is to :
Be as wild and crazy i was my freshman year.
Woooooooty woooooo.
Bommm chak a laka.
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| ...what up thug? |
[28 Jan 2005|07:10pm] |
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crazy. |
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thatssss to ravvven <3 |
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It is time to retaliate (sp?)
For I have been replaced.
Slowly but surly i have.
And i will not stand for it ya here me.
You are going down....
DOWN BITCH.
DOWN.
Ha
Ha
Ha
shut the fuck up.
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| best friends means i pulled the trigger.... |
[13 Jan 2005|04:23pm] |
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hungry for....pizza. |
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tbs. |
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So since tuesday was my first officail day off...
You know me and christina went crazy.
WARNING
The pictures you are about to veiw may scare you.
If there are any young children around the computer...
We advise to have them evacuate the room..NOW.
(im just kidding)♥
( If we go down we go down together♥ )
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| dont scream my name out your window im leaving.... |
[12 Jan 2005|02:54pm] |
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irritated.confused. |
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Taking Back Sunday |
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I miss my friends.
I want them back.
I dont like the new Shardeh anymore.
In fact...
I hate it.
I mean i like the new friends i made.
But i miss my old friends.
Like Sara & Rachel.
And Brittney & Tabby & Ashley
I mean cant people listen to emo/punk & not dress that way.
Without being called a poser?
Oh well.
I dont care what people think.
I just miss my old life.
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| we lyke dem boyz up top from the BK.... |
[11 Jan 2005|07:23pm] |
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mood |
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....gangsta? |
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Solider*Destiny Child |
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Ive been feeling awfully 'gangsta' latly.
Anywho..
Question Of The Flippin Day:
What song most reminds you of ME and why?
...unless your christina. In which case you have to name 20. ♥B.F.F..like omgzzzz
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| it feels so goooood to be back.... |
[10 Jan 2005|03:48pm] |
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giddyy like a mother fucker |
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Shorty Wanna Ride Wit Me*Young Buck |
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Guess what bitches?
Im off punishment.
Heck mother effin yes!
next 4 weeks = crunkness to the 10th power
Mmmmm take that♥
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| "locked up. they wont let me out!" |
[25 Dec 2004|04:05pm] |
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i miss you guys. |
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music |
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Christmas Music |
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Yeah. So im punished.
So if you havent talked to me in forever thats why.
But i miss you all.
And i wish you a very Merry Christmas.
I LOVE YOU GUYS.
I got a digital camera for christmas
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| .....they say that the good die young |
[19 Dec 2004|11:43am] |
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trying to be strong? |
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The Good Die Young*D12 |
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Last night i did the hardest thing i ever had to do.
I had to look at Josh for one last time.
They are burying him in his football jersey.
As soon as i saw that i broke down.
I couldnt take it.
His mother was there. She was holding his shirt.
I hugged her and she smelt like Josh.
I tryed to stay strong for other people.
But i just couldnt.
It took me awhile to go up up there and say a prayer next to him.
I touched his arm for one last time and then we left.
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Josh ♥
I prayed to God last nite.
I prayed for your family and all of your friends
I asked him to send me a sign that you were okay.
And he did.
I asked him to take good care of you.
And then i talked to you.
I told you that i missed you
And that i loved you
And how everyone doesnt want to believe you are gone.
I told you how we all missed your smile
And how much your dad and mom really miss you
I just hope you are doing okay in Heaven.
I know you are going to be everyones Angel
Save a spot for me?
I saved a spot for you in my heart.
I love you more then you could ever know.
I promise to stay strong Joshua.
Love always and forever
Shardeh
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| I miss the seasons & the comfort of your smile |
[18 Dec 2004|12:37am] |
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drained.emotional.missing you |
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I Think the Hero Dies In This One*Ataris |
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As I sit here all alone,
I wonder how I'm suppose to carry on when you're gone.
I'll never be the same without you,
I love you more then you will ever know.
So maybe now you finally know.
Do you ever feel like crying?
Do you ever feel like giving up?
I raise my hands up towards the sky,
I say this prayer for you tonight,
Because nothing is impossible.
God Josh. I really do miss you alot.
I cant stop thinking about you.
We had so much fun together.
I went to the accident scene today.
I layed flowers down.
Your brother was there.
He misses you so much.
I think everyone does though.
I try so hard not to think about it.
Because i know you wouldnt want to see everyone like this..
But i cant. I just keep thinking about you.
I cant stop thinking about the accident.
Every little thing reminds me of you.
Your viewing is tomorrow.
I keep thinking that maybe this is a dream.
Im in such denial.
I just keep replaying memories of you in my head.
God. To hear you sing oldies to me one more time.
I would give up anything. ANYTHING!
You dont understand how much we all need you.
Why you Josh? You were so young. So beautiful.
So amazing. So funny. So wonderful.
And its not fair.
Ive never seen so much crying.
Nobody smiles anymore.
How can we?
The most amazing person is gone.
We are all having a hard time graping that though....
Please save a spot for me in heaven?
I promise to bring a fruit by the foot.
Rest in peace my sweet cheeks♥
5/25/88 - 12/15/04
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| but i didnt get to say goodbye.... |
[16 Dec 2004|03:09pm] |
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arent even words to express :( |
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View From Heaven*Yellocard |
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Its hard to grasp that you really are gone.
I dont think that its hit me yet that im never going to see you again.
I was walking down the hallways today and everyone looked like zombies.
Ive never heard the halls of Chesapeke this quiet before.
There were so many people crying today.
You were such an amazing person.
You always had a smile on your face.
You were always making everybody laugh.
And now you`re gone.
I cant ever eat a fruit by the foot again.
Because that was OUR thing.
Every morning.
First period.
Me and you would split a fruit by the foot.
You always got the bigger half though.
I remember how you ruined my art project.
You insisted that the damn bird be orange.
But you told me not to worry.
"One failing grade wont hurt"
The first time i met you you were in the dark room singing.
"Now go.Walk out the door.Just turn around now.Cause your not welcome anymore"
You poked your head into my class.
You were bobing you head in all kinds of wierd ways.
You had me laughing until my stomach hurt.
You always stole my cookies too.
God you were a one of a kind person.
You were so incredible.
I dont think you know how much everyone misses you.
I keep thinking about how your never going to graduate.
Your never going to go to prom.
And its killing me.
I cant stop crying.
You used to call me your "sugar dumplin"
I used to loathe it.
Now i would do anything to hear you say those words.
You were my sweet cheeks♥
Save a spot in heaven for me?
RIP
Joshua Micheal Vacek
5/25/88 - 12/15/04
did you know i miss you?
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